Saturday, December 29, 2007

End of 2007 is in sight

Well another has come and is almost gone with only 2 days to go. I was hoping that the pain I have been having would be gone by the end of the year and I could start 2008 as nearly pain free as I could. The pain in the hand, arm, shoulder and neck is better, but definitely not gone. I still have to wear the collar for a few more weeks. It was supposed to come off on Jan. 1st, but I am having too much pain when I leave it off for 3-4 hours. I really hurt bad when I don't wear it at night (like to doctor said to do); then wake up so sore it takes more pain medication to get the pain to settle down. I usually believe that "God doesn't give us more than we can handle", but I have been questioning that some times recently.

I am getting the run around (I feel like I am) by my doctors. I went to my family doctor about the dizzy spells I have been having and he ran a Holter Monitor Test (checking the electrical activity in the heart for 24 hours. The test came back normal, so the family doctor sent me to an Ear, Nose, & Throat (ENT) doctor. The ENT looked at my ears, nose and throat and said that he would like to do a hearing test, but he really felt the problem was neurological and referred me to the local Neurologist (Dr. Vaidya). I went in on Christmas Eve for the hearing test and it shows that my hearing is worse than it was in 2004 when I had the last test done. I am still waiting on the Doctor to call about the results. I am scheduled to see Dr. Vaidya on 01-02-08. Can you see the circle I am running in. The saddest part is that I still have dizzy spells and no idea what is causing them.

I am so tired of being sick and I am still hoping that 2008 turns out much better than 2007 has been. I would love to get to a point that I can manage the pain and live in semi comfort for several years before something else goes wrong with my back.

I am done rambling for now. I hope everyone has a Happy New Year.

Judy

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Rate My Life Quiz

This Is My Life, Rated
Life: 4.5
Mind: 5.2
Body: 2.4
Spirit: 7.6
Friends/Family: 4.4
Love: 0
Finance: 4.6
Take the Rate My Life Quiz



Your Life Analysis:
Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score is on the low end. Making key changes to different aspects of your life will bring you greater fulfillment. Do not be discouraged. Seek help outside yourself if need be. There is always time to change, and change will bring many rewards. (Read more on improving your life)

Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind.

Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have a very low body score, indicating that your physical health is not in a good condition. You must redouble your focus on improving your body, through nutrition, exercise, and stress reduction. Bodily damage accumulates, so do not delay your healing. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body.

Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score is relatively high, which means you are rewarded by your beliefs. Spirituality is clearly important to do. Never let it slip, and continue to learn and grow. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit.

Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score suffers, yet it does not need to be this way. Strengthen your social network by reaffirming old bonds. Seek out new friendships, and they will provide you the reward you need. Try using MeetUp.com to find people near you who share your interests.

Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is very low, indicating trouble. If your marriage is not in good shape, consider which options can help you get back on the right track. This will bring you a tremendous life improvement. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love.

Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your financial score indicates some trouble. Raise your score over time by making changes which will lead to greater prosperity in the future. Be sure to live within your means today. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving your finances.

My scores are a little depressing, but that is where I am as of today. But I am a little depressed today, so maybe it is more reflective than I think.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

POST OP REPORT

Well, as usual I am way behind on entering information into this blog. My surgery was on November 6, 2007. I have very little memory of the 4 day hospital stay. About all I remember is that one night (I don't know which night) they took my blood pressure and I remember the nurse saying it was 90/30 and it seemed almost immediately they were in my room with an X-ray machine taking pictures of my chest and then being hooked up for an EKG. I don't remember calling my son to tell him they were going to release me and I don't remember the 2 hour ride home. My son told me that I got home and slept for 14 hours. This all is very scary for me since this has never happened to me before following any of the numerous surgeries I have had in my 57 years. I will be asking my surgeon a lot of questions at the first follow appointment.

As for the surgery, I had relief of the numbness in my hand and arm when I was aware of what was going on (after I got home from the hospital). Very little other pain for the first two weeks, then the pain has reappeared in my neck, shoulder and upper arm. I tried to reduce the pain medication starting the third week of recovery and I am not going to be able to do that. I am posting this information at 4 AM since I can not sleep due to the pain.

I am wearing a soft cervical collar and have to wear a bone growth stimulator for 4 hours every day. I don't have any idea of how long I will have to wear the collar or use the stimulator. If I was told while in the hospital, that information went into the brain fog of memory loss.

It has been very difficult to not bend or twist. Also, I have a 10# weight limit, so I can't do much of anything. My son stayed with me for the first week I was home and took care of the trash, getting groceries, etc. He helped a lot but he would not cook meals, so I spent a lot of money on having him go out and bring back meals. I just didn't have the strength to stand and try to prepare a meal, plus my throat was hurting so much that I didn't really want to eat.

My son's girlfriend came over on the day before Thanksgiving and prepped for the Thanksgiving Dinner. She fixed a great Chicken Casserole for supper that night and prepared the entire meal for Thanksgiving by herself. I am sure that she was very nervous cooking in my kitchen with me just a few feet away. Thanksgiving Day was very enjoyable and I finally could eat a little solid food without it killing my throat (still had some problem swallowing). My son and his girlfriend stayed here till about 7 PM on Thanksgiving Day and then went home.

The days after Thanksgiving were going pretty well except for the sore throat that is still bothering me and the pain is increasing in my arm. It feels like someone threw a baseball and hit me in the shoulder and upper arm, but no bruising so the pain is on the inside. I go back to the neurosurgeon on Wednesday, November 28th for the first follow up appointment. Since I can not drive with the collar on, my son's girlfriend offered to take me to the appointment. She has that day off so she will not miss any work time to haul me back to Oklahoma City. I told her I would take her to the Olive Garden for lunch as payment for being my driver. She really likes the Olive Garden and we do not have on locally.

Well, I will sign off for now and hopefully I can get back with a follow up report after my doctor's appointment.

Friday, October 26, 2007

Myelogram/CT Results

Well I got the results from the Myelogram/CT on Wednesday. The neurosurgeon said that I have Chronic Degenerative Disc Disease, Spondylosis at C5-C6 & C6-C7 (which are vertebrae in the neck), and a central disc protrusion at C6-C7. Since all the other treatments available have failed, he suggested an Anterior Decompression and Spinal Fusion surgery. I am a little scared about this. They go in from an incision on the front of my neck and work on the vertebrae of my spine. He is going to use cadaver bone for the fusion. Since I have legs problems already, he will not harvest my own bone for the fusion. He said that the cadaver bone will not reject since it does not have any blood properties in it and it is easier to use since it is already pre-cut to fit the vertebrae.

After the surgery, I will have to be in the hospital for 1-2 days. They will fit me for a neck brace and show me how to use the bone growth stimulator. They said the bone growth stimulator will emit electrical signals to help the bone graft fuse to my vertebrae, which will take from 3-6 months. The surgeon said that the most likely causes of a graft/fusion failure are: more than one level to be fused, smoking, patient non-compliance with activity restrictions/or brace wear, using anti-inflammatory medications and malnutrition. I have two of the problems: more than one level to be fused and I currently smoke, but it looks like that will have to stop. I am going to try to cut back and stop on November 1st. In my mind, stopping smoking will be the hardest part of the whole process since I have smoked for over 40 years.

My son is not really happy about the time of the surgery. It will be on Tuesday, November 6th at 5:30 AM in Oklahoma City. That means we will have to leave here at 3 AM to be at the hospital on time. He is definitely not a morning person. But, I need him to be there just in case of any problems.

All of this will create a stressful holiday season since I will be in the recovery process through Thanksgiving and Christmas. My son and his girlfriend were planning on me cooking the Thanksgiving meal. Jokingly, I told my son that he might have to order Thanksgiving Dinner from one of the deli's. He said he couldn't believe I was saying that. I have always cooked big dinners for Holidays. But, I guess with getting older and in worse health he will have to learn that things can be done differently or he needs to send his girlfriend over and let me teach her how to do it. I guess I could be an instructor instead of the cook for at least one year.
Well I have rambled enough for now. I will report back after the surgery and let you know the results.

Till Later - Judy

Sunday, October 7, 2007

MYELOGRAM/CT

Well, I finally got the myelogram/CT scheduled for October 3rd. My son's girlfriend took me to Oklahoma City for the procedure. I was a little nervous about doing this, since the last time was very painful and I wasn't sure what to expect. The whole process was very good. The staff at Mercy Health Center were all very nice and they were very good at doing their jobs. The myelogram went off without a hitch and the CT person was very nice and quick. I was only at the hospital for a total of 4 hours. Previous myelograms had me stuck in bed in a flat position for 8 hours. I did have to be on bed rest for 24 hours after I got home, but at least I was in my own home and was much more comfortable than in a hospital. Karen (my son's girlfriend) spent the night with me just in case something went wrong. I felt bad that I took her whole day off, but I really appreciate her willingness to go with me.

I am scheduled to see the neurosurgeon on Oct. 24th, but have been put on the waiting list if there are any cancellations before that. I hope I can get in earlier. The pain medication that I am on is not working very well, but the next step is a pain patch and I have had bad results with it before. I am going to try to make the best of the situation until I see the doctor again.

I know that this all seems very boring, but this is where my life is at this time. I have been trying for 2 years to get my body back in some kind of shape that will allow me to be more active, but I am just not there yet.

I did have an interesting experience a few weeks ago. Several little ladies stopped at the house and said that they had lived here when they were children. They were arguing about whether there was a pond in the back yard. I told them that there has not been a pond here since we bought the house. I invited them in to see the house and they told a lot of stories about the house and what had changed since they lived here. I was very glad to learn that this house survived the 1955 tornado (THE BIG ONE!!) that all but wiped out Blackwell. The two sisters were in their 90's and now live in Oregon. They were very glad to see the house and reminisce. I know that I would like to see some of the homes I lived in as a child and hope I contributed to making their trip a little more enjoyable.

I am looking forward to the weather changing next week. They say that we should have some days in the 70's for highs. I would like to be able to turn the AC off and open the house for a good airing out before the cold weather sets in. It would also be nice for the electric bill to go down for a little while. We have had a rate increase this year and it has really effected the cost of being cool.

I hope you all enjoy the fall like weather and I will be back in touch later.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Doctor Results

Well I went to the neurosurgeon and I am back to the waiting game again. The doctor did not like the CT Scan that I had done here and wants me to do a myleogram and another CT, UGH!! I have to wait till they can get it scheduled at the hospital in Oklahoma City. I am hoping that this does not take too long. The doctor said that if it is only 2 vertabre involved he would be able to do surgery with a good prognosis, but if more than two are involved it is less positive. I am going to try and not think about the surgery for right now and just take care of what pain I have.

I did a little work around the house today, but ran out of steam after dusting the hardwood floors and picking up the trash. But I did do something positive today, so I am going to let the rest of it go for now.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

FRUSTRATION

I have spent all day trying to get answers about my internet connection. I have been on the phone for 3 hours trying to get someone who could talk with me that I could understand and that would listen to me and not try to talk over me.

After talking with three people and getting three different phone numbers to call; plus putting up with all the automated junk you have to go thru to get to a real human, I think I have finally gotten the problem resolved. The last person I spoke with was an AT&T line service technician who was very nice. He said that my problem is not unusual and he thinks he has the situation corrected.

The problem was that everytime I picked up my phone or hung up the phone, I lost the broadband connection to the internet. It has been going on for over 2 months and today is the third time I tried to get the problem fixed. The line service person said that it was a port problem. Which means it was where my connection was coming from. They changed the port and I will know in a few days if it is fixed. They are supposed to call me when it is done.

I have AT&T DSL internet service and mostly like it, but today was a real bummer. I hope none of you out there are having problems and if so, you don't have to go thru the frustration period that I have experienced today.

Tomorrow is the appointment with the neurosurgeon and hopefully I will get an answer to my NECK problem.

It seems that I go from problem to problem. I did finally get the roof on the house (it only took 4 days, UGH), but I am now trying to work with the insurance company because there were 2 layers of shingles on the house and the insurance only paid to remove one layer. I have to get a separate invoice from the roofer, file another claim with insurance, then if they agree with the cost they will issue a check that I have to send to my mortgage holder to endorse, wait till it comes back and then be able to pay the roofer the balance of the charges for the new roof. Nothing is easy anymore.

I am done working on problems for today. I have decided to fix a good supper and go out for a short walk this evening since the weather is somewhat favorable for being outside. It is only in the lower 80's out this afternoon, but will be better this evening around sundown. I do have a great park a half block from my house that has a neat walking trail in it.

Till later.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

A NEW BEGINNING

I have not posted anything to this blog since my son helped me to set it up. I am going to turn over a new leaf and begin using this space as a journal of my travels in a world that I did not choose to be in, but due to circumstances I am in anyway.

Before my husband passed away, we were a trucking team and had been on the road for 7 years together. My husband was my teacher, friend and the love of my life. When my son (Jared) graduated from high school in 1996, I found myself at home by myself and was not a happy camper. So when Chunk(my husband) asked me if I would like to go out with him, I agreed to go to school and learn the basics. I had never even driven a standard vehicle before I went to school and learned how to drive a big rig. The next seven years were wonderful, frustrating and a great learning experience till Chunk got sick and was diagnosed with lung cancer on August 15, 2003 and then died on October 27. 2003.

As you can tell from my profile, my husband of 27 years passed away almost 4 years ago and I have been in a downward spiral ever since. I really tried hard the first two years to create a new life for myself without him, but I have not accomplished what I set out to do.

After Chunk died, I sold our truck and went back to working in a clerical setting. I was an insurance billing clerk and a quality assurance clerk for the local hospital for almost 3 years until my health prevented me from continuing to work. In October of 2006 I had to quit working due to having health problems and was eventually approved for Social Security disability.

I have a terrible back according the my Neuroligist. He is always telling me to be very careful. Life is not much fun when you have to watch everthing you do. In April of 2005, I had my 4th back surgery and it did not work. I now have a spinal cord neurostimulator implanted in my body to help control the pain in my lower back and legs. Since July of this year, I have been battling pain in my neck, numbness in my arm and hand. After trying physical therapy, steroid injections and good old fashioned rest, I still have not made any progress with the new pain in my life. Next week, I go to another neurosurgeon to discuss the possibilities of him helping me with the literal PAIN IN MY NECK!!!!

So, my career plans are over for now and I must learn how to live alone, not have the daily contact with co-workers and learn how to live with pain that limits what I can and cannot do.

I have been filling my days this summer with getting my home in order. We purchased our home in 2000 and have not done much maintenance on it till this year. I have had a new sidewalk installed in the back yard, had the stucco on the house repaired and repainted, repaired and repainted two rooms inside and am as I write this getting a new roof on the house and the garage. I have other projects waiting for me, but are on hold till I get though with the doctors appointment next week.

I promise I will try to make the posts as positive as I can, but please know that I will have down days. I intend to use this space as sort of a daily inventory to keep me on the positive side. I would appreciate comments from anyone that has a situation similiar to mine. Maybe we can keep each other on the positive side of things.

Till later.

New Roof Today

I am finally getting my new roof today. They have been trying for two weeks to get two days in a row that are free of rain to start the roof. They could not have picked a better time to start. The cold front brought in cooler weather and less humidity. It is 55 degrees here this morning and a very light north wind, the weatherman just said that the wind chill is in the 40's.

I opened the house last night and turned off the air conditioner. It was so nice to go to sleep last night listening to the wind and the night time sounds instead of the hum of the air conditioner.

I hope everyone out there will take a few moments today to remember the victims of 9/11. I am flying the flag today and I hope you all are doing the same. I am so thankful that I live in a country that is free and I can enjoy such things as getting a new roof instead of wondering who may try to kill me today.